Going Down!

Finally some good news, my psa is going down!! Around a month ago my psa was 107 and doubling in under 5 weeks. By a rough estimate, when S gave me my Zoladex injection on April 21, it would have been around 140. A blood test May 5 gave a psa of 110! A drop of 30 in 2 weeks! So it appears the hormone injection is working despite a testosterone level of zero. I never would have expected to call a psa of 110 good news. Yet it is! I thank Dr JM for his advice, encouraging me to use the Zoladex…..

Meanwhile I am adapting to life down under in sub-tropical New South Wales. Having survived one of the coldest winters in recent history in Canada, I am now feeling the cold in Australia. I believe the hormone treatment affects the body’s ability to regulate its temperature. It is a small price to pay.

S is still in Canada and we are missing each other terribly, although we communicate daily by email, and the occasional phone call. Tomorrow I will see my oncologist and will discuss the next step in the journey. I feel well apart from some occasional arthritic complaints. I really don’t have any evidence or symptoms of cancer apart from that number! What if I have experienced a spontaneous remission? How will I explain that? Black Salve? Curcumin? Faith? or modern medicine?

Unrealistic!! Don’t get your hopes up. What else is there? We stop hoping for a cure or at least a long term slowing of disease progression we are dead already!! And so I fight on, believing that S and I will have a long and happy future!

Cancer is not my enemy – I am cancer’s Enemy!!

Footnote: The ship in the photo is the French barque “Adolphe” that was wrecked entering Newcastle Harbour in 1904. Her bones rest against Stockton breakwater to this day. The photo is part of the Newcastle City Library collection. Other ships had been wrecked in the same place, known as The Oyster Bank.

Never Give Up

Here I go again with the black salve, this time in capsules form. I thought it would be black but it’s not, as you can see. I have read so many testimonials about black salve and other natural therapies, it is hard to accept that they are all fake. So, undaunted, I  will  continue  in my quest for a cure, or at least a slowing down of the process.

First, to those who think I  am wasting my time and money. These capsules do not cost anywhere near as much as the drugs from pharmaceutical companies. Also they do not do as much damage as chemotherapy, hormone therapy, surgery or radiation, all of which have failed in some cases despite the cost. In fact, people often end up worse off.

My new regime starts today. I take circumin with black pepper twice per day and blood root capsules 3 times per day with food, as per the manufacturers directions. I will continue to monitor my psa on a regular basis. My last psa in March was nearly 50 indicating a doubling time of 5 weeks. Now that is scary!

Any reasonable person would conclude that my experiment with black salve didn’t work, in fact it may have made things worse! Unreasonably, I prefer to believe that it has stirred up the cancer cells, causing them to excrete psa in their agony of dying. I visualise those little buggers writhing in pain, doubled over as psa oozes out of their contorted bodies! The dead bodies mopped up by my strengthened immune system and leaving my body through the usual channels.

Well that is what I  choose to believe. My next psa test is later next week. Until then I hold on to my faith. Cancer does not have me. My spirit is well!

Thank you to all who consciously or unconsciously are praying for me, and a big thanks to my partner S who is my faith when mine is weak.