How long have I got, Doc?

The question we all wonder/worry about and yet it seems to me that the experts never get it right, so, what is the point of asking?

I feel that when the time comes I will know. It is a question so far I have refused to ask, even though it is often on my mind. When i was first diagnosed in 2008, the oncologist bluntly stated 15 years. I didn’t ask. It is now 2019. 11 years down, 4 to go if we can believe that doctor. Frankly, another 4 years would suit me fine,provided I am not in pain, remain reasonably active, retain most of my mental faculties, retain my sense of humour and the ability to be reasonably useful and not too great a burden on my loved ones. Not too much to ask? I am now 72. If I make it to 76 I certainly can’t complain. Many a good person has not made it this far. Besides, I believe in a life in the hereafter, so that is something to look forward to.

I still have things to achieve, a bucket list of sorts. It is not cast in bronze. I want to do some more sailing and I have discovered an organisation that provides sailing for people with disabilities at a very reasonable cost. The days of owning my own boat are gone. I have more cross stitching in the pipeline as long as my eyes and fingers hold out. My latest psa was 247, up from 197 4 weeks ago. Not as big an increase as I expected. Maybe the Zytiga is helping. I have been taking it since my final radium infusion a few weeks ago.

Travel in the USA or anywhere other than Australia or Canada is out as no one will insure me. I don’t know what the record for psa is, maybe I can beat it!! Now that’s something to look forward to!

2 thoughts on “How long have I got, Doc?

  1. Pondering one’s own mortality is a biggie, wherever you are on life’s sliding scale. I am not, thankfully, in the same boat as you Les, but every time I throw my leg over a motorcycle I must admit I do have a thought along the “How long?” line.
    Someone once said,
    “If life is a sentence, it’s the full-stop at the end you have to watch out for!”
    In any case, there’s an awful lot of Australia and Canada to explore and keep you busy for a good few years, eh!
    Best wishes from the middle of the Bay of Biscay.

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  2. Sounds like you are in a good place Les. I gave up asking the question about how long to go. In 2012, when I was told the cancer had spread and my situation was terminal, they said three to five years. A second opinion came in at two years. Four years ago I was in palliative care and they said likely twelve months. I cannot say that I am still going strong, but I am doing pretty well. Here’s hoping you can slam dunk the 15th year and set sail for another marker. Cheer, Phil

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