Unwelcome News

This morning I received the long awaited phone call. “Your psa is 107”. I had so much hoped for a much lower number than last time (48.6), or at least a levelling off. I was even prepared for at worst a doubling (97.2) but 107 came as quite a shock. S and I were getting ready to go out to lunch with some friends. We had a great lunch, fresh Halibut at a great venue, right near Vancouver airport. Of course we could not say too much as we are still trying to come to terms with what this number actually means……

So, what does it mean? At first sight it would appear to indicate that the cancer cells are multiplying at an increasing rate. A closer look at the graph shows that there was a decrease following radiotherapy and then a sudden rise coinciding with taking black salve internally in October 2016. I am now taking a powder form of black salve in capsules. To be more correct it is a mixture of bloodroot powder, chaparral powder, graviola powder and burdock root powder. None of which would cause me any harm, but should disrupt cancer cells.

Prostate cancer is supposed to be slow growing, so maybe it is reasonable to assume it will be slow to die as well. (It works for me!). I can theorise about it until the cows come home, but at the end of the day only definitive tests by my oncologist will reveal the true story. I plan therefore to return to Australia where I can have testing and receive treatment.

Tonight, S will give me a Zoladex injection and I will have another psa test in 3 weeks to see if it is making a difference. My sincere thanks go to Dr JM for his advice. (I am so grateful that you cared enough to give your opinion.)

Maybe some reader is wondering about how I am feeling. I feel disappointed. I feel frustrated that I will have to leave my beloved S, even if it only for a short time. I hope she will join me in Australia at a later date. I feel there are so many things that I have not done and may not be able to do, yet at the same time I am grateful for the things I have done, the people I have met and the opportunity to spend real quality time with the woman I love. I feel hopeful that my treatment will be successful and that we will return soon to Canada in time to enjoy the beautiful weather that is just now coming with Spring.  I thank all of my readers for your prayers, your good wishes and your support. God bless all of you. Les.

6 thoughts on “Unwelcome News

  1. So sorry to hear this. In glad that you’re being so proactive. Xtandi brought my PSA down to the teens from the mid 70s. This journey is filled with frustration, fear, and anger, but you’re doing great. I hope S can join you soon.

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    1. Thanks for your support Jim. Stefanie and I do appreciate it so much. I am still with her in Canada at this time and plan to leave late May. I will see my oncologist early June. I hope Stefanie can join me soon after that. It is all up to fate, destiny, God, whatever. I feel well and am staying positive. Apart from the numbers and the medical reports and the ED I wouldn’t know I had cancer. I have the support of a great woman who truly loves me. How can I be depressed with her in my life?

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  2. Saying “hang in there” seems inadequate. But I know you will. My radiation oncologist tells me that there are many options if one hormone therapy fails. Not like the good old days when there were only two strikes and you were out. Thinking of you and sending heaps of positive vibes. Cheers, Phil

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