Apprehension

Apprehension is what I feel whenever I am heading into the unknown, especially if danger is involved, such as heading out to sea under sail. I know my ship is strong, I built her myself from steel. I know I am strong, I feel well with no symptoms of cancer. I have every reason to feel good, and yet this psa number overshadows my thoughts like a storm cloud.

My last psa test was on Saturday. 5 weeks ago it was almost 50. If it is still doubling it will be almost 100. Now that is a scary thought, but it is only a thought and it’s just a number. However, I still believe that the black salve is working and disrupting the cancer which makes this a false reading. My hope is that the number will level off or even fall as time goes by.

Nonetheless I am happy and blessed in my life. I am grateful for all that I have. God works in wondrous ways so I trust in Him. I will have a result before the weekend.

2 thoughts on “Apprehension

  1. Scanxiety is a monster that is hard to manage. Thinking you and sending heaps of positive vibes for peaceful times and a good result. Cheers, Phil

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